My husband and I went to the pharmacy yesterday to pick up Lupron (Lupron will suppress my ovulation for next cycle so that I don't ovulate too early on stims). We get home and I'm looking at the 14 syringes in the box and I start to cringe. Firstly, I hate needles...any kind of needle really creeps me out! Secondly, I'm still in disbelief that this is the stage I'm at to conceive a child. I never, ever thought I would struggle with infertility. I think back to all the money I spent on birth control in my 20's...ha! I could have saved all the money for infertility treatments!
On a good note, I have been consistently working out and feeling very good about that. I'm starting this cycle overweight but at least I can still be active. My IVF nurse said I can continue with all my normal exercise during stimming and in fact, encouraged movement during my cycle. The only thing I can't do is hot yoga, which I will miss a lot :(
So, I'll take my first Lupron injection tonight. Scary and exciting at the same time.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Let me introduce myself...
January 27, 2010
I'm a 30-something year old woman, married to a 30-something year old amazing man. We've made a great life for ourselves and are hoping our little family of two will become three.
I finally took the plunge. I've started a blog. I've been thinking about this for a while. My husband and I have been trying to concieve our first child almost 4 1/2 years. So far, the journey has been a roller coaster. This is my story of infertility, miscarrage, hope, inspiration and hopefully, motherhood.
Here is a quick and dirty timeline of our journey so far:
November 2004 - threw out the last of my birth control pills.
September 2005 - first cycle of trying to conceive. BFP, which ended in an early loss.
June 2006 - suprise BFP. Loss in July 2006.
November 2006 - BFP. Another loss.
January 2007 - Started with an RE. Standard testing done. DH's SA was great. Two mystery cysts found on my left ovary, which my RE wasn't concerned about.
April 2007 - First round of clomid with IUI. BFN.
May 2007 - Second round of clomid with IUI. BFN.
June 2007 - Third round of clomd with TI. BFP. Yup, you guessed it...another loss.
December 2007 - At my insistence, I had a laporoscopy, which removed the mystery cysts and confirmed a diagnosis of endometriosis.
January 2008 - Started with another RE.
June 2008 - First round of Repronex and Puregon. BFP. Blighted ovum discovered at 6 weeks. My asshole RE didn't want to give me the bad news and let me carry a dead baby in my belly until 9 weeks, when I went to my OB. Misoprotal taken to start a miscarriage but didn't clear out all the "tissue". November 2008 - d&c done to clear out everything. Okay, moving onto another RE.
November 2008 - Met with my third (and final) RE. First cycle of Gonal-F. BFN.
February 2009 - Second cycle of Gonal-F. BFP. Heart beat at 6 weeks. Loss at 7 weeks.
May 2009 - Surprise BFP. Heart beat at 6 weeks. Thundering heart beat of 160 at 8 weeks...YAY!!!!!! Searing abdominal pain at almost 9 weeks. Loss discovered at 10 weeks. Seriously thinking about living childfree because I am so emotionally fragile.
So, that's my journey so far. Dr. S suggested we take a break...fine by me. I need a rest from the trauma of consistent BFN's and the devastating loss of the BFP's I do get.
Dr. S also suggested we do IVF w/ PGD (a process to rule out chromosomal abnormalities). I start meds for our first (and hopefully) only IVF this Sunday. Fingers crossed that this will finally us a healthy baby.
In the midst of my quest to motherhood, I've developed a passion for baking and a love for cooking. This is bizzare because I never dreamed I had culinary skills...who knew?
I have a long time love for reading and I enjoy almost all genres. Susan Isaacs and Janet Evanovich are two of my favourite authors.
My youngest sister and I are taking up yoga. Let me tell you, watching my 125 pound sister do yoga poses with grace and balance is a real slap in the face when I look at my big body struggling to not fall flat in my ass.
Thanks for reading.
I'm a 30-something year old woman, married to a 30-something year old amazing man. We've made a great life for ourselves and are hoping our little family of two will become three.
I finally took the plunge. I've started a blog. I've been thinking about this for a while. My husband and I have been trying to concieve our first child almost 4 1/2 years. So far, the journey has been a roller coaster. This is my story of infertility, miscarrage, hope, inspiration and hopefully, motherhood.
Here is a quick and dirty timeline of our journey so far:
November 2004 - threw out the last of my birth control pills.
September 2005 - first cycle of trying to conceive. BFP, which ended in an early loss.
June 2006 - suprise BFP. Loss in July 2006.
November 2006 - BFP. Another loss.
January 2007 - Started with an RE. Standard testing done. DH's SA was great. Two mystery cysts found on my left ovary, which my RE wasn't concerned about.
April 2007 - First round of clomid with IUI. BFN.
May 2007 - Second round of clomid with IUI. BFN.
June 2007 - Third round of clomd with TI. BFP. Yup, you guessed it...another loss.
December 2007 - At my insistence, I had a laporoscopy, which removed the mystery cysts and confirmed a diagnosis of endometriosis.
January 2008 - Started with another RE.
June 2008 - First round of Repronex and Puregon. BFP. Blighted ovum discovered at 6 weeks. My asshole RE didn't want to give me the bad news and let me carry a dead baby in my belly until 9 weeks, when I went to my OB. Misoprotal taken to start a miscarriage but didn't clear out all the "tissue". November 2008 - d&c done to clear out everything. Okay, moving onto another RE.
November 2008 - Met with my third (and final) RE. First cycle of Gonal-F. BFN.
February 2009 - Second cycle of Gonal-F. BFP. Heart beat at 6 weeks. Loss at 7 weeks.
May 2009 - Surprise BFP. Heart beat at 6 weeks. Thundering heart beat of 160 at 8 weeks...YAY!!!!!! Searing abdominal pain at almost 9 weeks. Loss discovered at 10 weeks. Seriously thinking about living childfree because I am so emotionally fragile.
So, that's my journey so far. Dr. S suggested we take a break...fine by me. I need a rest from the trauma of consistent BFN's and the devastating loss of the BFP's I do get.
Dr. S also suggested we do IVF w/ PGD (a process to rule out chromosomal abnormalities). I start meds for our first (and hopefully) only IVF this Sunday. Fingers crossed that this will finally us a healthy baby.
In the midst of my quest to motherhood, I've developed a passion for baking and a love for cooking. This is bizzare because I never dreamed I had culinary skills...who knew?
I have a long time love for reading and I enjoy almost all genres. Susan Isaacs and Janet Evanovich are two of my favourite authors.
My youngest sister and I are taking up yoga. Let me tell you, watching my 125 pound sister do yoga poses with grace and balance is a real slap in the face when I look at my big body struggling to not fall flat in my ass.
Thanks for reading.
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